I 'm sorry it's so long!:-)

Acts 3 records a story most of us are familiar with- Peter and John and the crippled man, “Silver and gold have I not…” So, yesterday on my way home from work (by the way my trip home through the infamous bus rank is rather interesting and deserves a blog which is due soon :-)), anyway, on my way home from work I stopped to get something to eat cause I feeling really overwhelmed and just needed some food to make it all better.:-) After getting a KFC twister and some chips (fries) I went to the bus rank and got on a kombi (minibus/van). As I sat down and reached for my chips, I noticed this boy sitting right opposite me. His face just said it all. My heart was broken, and I felt like a jerk eating my chips in front of him so I decided to give them to him. He reached out his hands and gratefully received them. I watched him eating ( not in a creepy, stalker kind of way:-)) and wondered what his story was. When it was time for everyone to pay the fare, I asked him how much he had to pay and I paid it for him. I still couldn’t take my mind off of him so I started to pray for him. As I prayed I thought of conversations I’ve had with friends about how overwhelming it can get as you live amongst people that are so needy. Once you choose to open your eyes, you see the need all around you and it can overwhelm you. I am not rich. I have had many days when I have wished I had this or that, but I have also had many days where I have thought, “Maybe if I give away all my clothes or all the money I have I can help make a dent in this huge, overwhelming problem”. There are days when I think I’m close to ‘poor’ and there are other days when I feel uncomfortably ‘rich’. All of this has led me to the realization that it’s not about rich or poor. I can give away my chips or money, I can be given this or that, but that’s not what it’s about. As I prayed for that boy, I realized that the most precious gift that I have to give him is my prayers, my prayers for God to be His all. What has sustained me in my times of plenty/ needed? Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!!!” I know what it is to be in need and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation…I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:12-13 When I think about meeting the physical need around me, I am overwhelmed and feel a sense of hopelessness, but when I realize that there is a spiritual need that the God of heaven and earth desires to fill, I feel a sense of freedom and excitement. There is a solution, there is hope- Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!!!! I prayed for that boy and I know He is in Good Hands- with or without my chips. :-)

Also, if you think about it, please pray for me. I am really having a hard time. I don’t know what the reason for this is. I know Satan is trying to distract me. I want to be offensive and not let him have his way. I just feel so weak. All I want to do is go to my little corner and cry! I just miss Kristen a lot and feel so detached and I don’t know really, I just am having a really hard time. I have great friends here that have been amazing and that I thank God for everyday, but it’s still hard. I just really need and would greatly appreciate spiritual support right now. I feel so vulnerable. Please also pray for everyone working with Children’s cup and people in ministry everywhere...Ephesians 6:18-20