Monday, March 30, 2009

Being sick...nose ring drama??

Between being sick and being busy and then being sick again :-) I haven't had much time to sit, process, and blog. Today, I am finally at the point where I feel that my energy levels are not such that I have to work in small increments in order to conserve energy!!! I am myslef again and can work as if I am one of those battery things on the adverts that have 6 times as much power as the other batteries, and I have to say that I am glad, I am happy, I love being well, and I love being able to do stuff!!!

Which brings me to one of my points...being sick the past week was pretty miserable and I kept asking the question I always ask when I'm sick, "What purpose is there in this?" This time I think it was to show me just what an awesome blessing it is to be well, to be healthy, to do all the things I can do( never mind the extras of money and stuff and all the other things we call blessings), just being well, being healthy and strong is such a blessing, and well, today, at 80% energy level, I have been made more fully aware of the blessing that it is, so yay!!!! :-)


In other news, remember the nose ring drama?? Some of you might!:-) Well, my nose ring mysteriously disappeared while I was in Zim last Christmas( the morning after I had asked Lu what he thought of it!!! :-))...and on Saturday, after many days of missing that little addition to my face, I decided to get another one. I went in the shop all by myself, trying not to think about the pain, wishing there was someone to give me moral support, when all of a sudden , my friend Tam and her sister walked up to me, and I was like, 'hey you guys want to be my moral support' They said yes and well the rest is history...we are hoping for a less dramatic experience as I heal :-)

Another really cool thing from being sick this past week was all the love and support. As much as I wear the sign 'Miss Independent' on my head, I really love it when I feel loved and taken care of and don't have to 'run and save the world!! :-)' and I am so thankful for all the love I received while sick...Sarah baked me choc chip cookies- I ate 4 that night and 4 the next morning!!!:-), Portia called me and texted me and kept 'checking on me'!, Becca was actaully sick with me one day :-), Make Nxumalo interceeded( yes, I'm talking serious no joking around prayer!!!:-)) for me, Roger played guitar for me on Friday so I could go home, Diane prayed for me,Paul took me home when my energy level was a bitt too close to zero, Ben said I should go home ( as much as I know I can and should go home when I'm sick, it means a lot when your boss actaully tells you to go home, at least for me :-)), the youth praise and worship team were sweet and kind:-), My mum was motherly and stuff :-), so many more things I can't rememmber...and of course, Lu again claimed first prize as the world's most amazing boyfriend while I was sick!!!!!

Yesterday, I woke up, still physically sick, but my heart was so stirred up, encouraged, and renewed...I sang and played at 200% energy level even though I felt I only had 50%, and it was awesome, He was awesome!!! He has so much He wants to do...Ps Isaac preached about giving what you have from the stroy of the lame man, Peter and John, etc. I was again reminded that I am on a mission, His mission- to go and make disciples- and even when I am sick He is with me to the end of the age, He will see to it that this mission is accomplished!!!! I can't wait to see what all He does...

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

...

So I have had one of the hardest emotional days that I have ever had or at least remember having in while!!! Normal people would go run or something, but I can't really run :-) so I went to play the keys and wrote this:

A broken heart
A broken heart
A broken and contrite heart
A tearful song
A heart that longs
Through pain You lead me on

You cover me
You cover me
Sing sweetly
Sing sweetly

Rejoice oh my soul
Rejoice oh my soul
He has made me glad
He has made me glad

Faith chooses...

My day has started out on a weird note...I am tempted to 'go with the flow' and become all negative and depressed, but I choose joy, I choose joy...

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Zimbabwe, my heart, etc...

The guys- Ps. Ben, Paul, and Tye- just got back from Zim. I was so happy to see them all and of course so hungry(yes, ravished! :-)) for stories from the Zimbabwe. I wanted so badly to hear about this place that will not let go of my heart, these people that I cannot wait to spend eternity with!!!! Some of the stories were funny, all I'm saying is Tye, lizzards? Paul, butterfiles?? :-) Then, they started to metnion names, like Philip, Lesley, Rudo...and places, like How Mine, Saurestown...and my poor little heart almost broke!!!

I have never felt a about any place the way I do about Zimbabwe. I have never loved anyone they way I love Lungile... I can't wait to go to Zim. I can't wait to serve God alongside Lungile...I'm reading 'Crazy Love' by Francis Chan and everyhting in that book speaks so loudly to me. It's challenging at times, but so true and my heart has no choice, but to embrace it!!! God has given me His crazy(unconditional, unfailing, perfect) love for a country and for a man, and I am not the same, I will never be the same, I am officially, eternally ruined!!! And it's so awesome!!!!!

Me and some kids at How Mine!!! Love them!!!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Quotes From 'Crazy Love'

" People who are obsessed with Jesus aren't consumed with their personal safety and comfort above all else. Obsessed people care more about God's kingdom coming to this earth than their own lives being shielded from pain or distress."

" Obsessed people love those who hate them and who can never love them back."

" The idea of holding back certainly did not come from Scripture. The Bible teaches us to be consumed with Christ and to faithfully live out His words."

" There has to be more to our faith than friendliness, politeness, and even kindness."

" Godliness with contentment is great gain." 1 Tim 6:6

" People who are obsessed with Jesus live lives that connect them with the poor in some way or another."

" Why is it that the story of someone who has actually done what Jesus commands resonates deeply within us, but we then assume we could never do anything so radical/intense? or why do we call it radical when, to Jesus, it is simply the way it is? The way it should be?"

"A person who is obsessed with Jesus will do things that don't always make sense in terms of success or wealth on this earth. As Martin Luther put it, 'There are two days on my calendar:this day and that day.'